ugh I need to get my shit together

My last post was a bit ago. Let's see what's changed...uhh nothing. Nope still have yet to tell my parents. When I say parents I obviously mean my mom and dad as well as my new step dad (2nd one haha) but he's amazing and we all love him and my step mom as well (she's interesting to say the least). But the most important person is my mom. She came to visit this weekend with my sister and step dad. We all had an amazing time but the whole gay thing was kind of the elephant in the room. They have no idea but my friends up here all know as well as my best friends who are semi-scattered around the state at different universities. Oh and not to mention the girl I'm seeing...she's my roommate. Yes ladies and gentlemen...this is my life. Welcome. Please stay a while. So basically the cat needs to be let out of the bag. And soon. All its doing is stressing me out (because I'm very close to my mom and I feel like I'm living two different lives) and its hurting my girlfriend. Even though she is very supportive and lets me know that I can totally take my time and tell my parents at my discretion I feel it still stings a bit to see the woman you care about having to hide your valentine's day present. Shitty I know...so I just have to bite the bullet. But I don't know how to go about it. Maybe a letter? Its just I feel I can get my feelings out better on paper. Even though it doesn't necessarily need to be a long, drawn out issue. There really isn't much to discuss. Its kinda like this is the way I am and if you don't like it then that's pretty much it isn't it? I know I know its not going to be that simple. Just let me live in this delusion for the time being. Its the only way I can deal right now. Alright I'll keep you guys updated! Peace out cub scouts!